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|Tuesday, February 21st, 2006|
How many coincidences does it take to make it purposeful?
I was thinking about this, if someone accidently hit you, then kept doing your going to quit thinking it was an accident. How many signs and confermations does our Creator have to give to show us he has everything planned. Honestly there is scripture, the stars, the symbolism of the feasts, the dates of prophecy and the events that came and fulfilled them.
Went to the kingdom theology class with jess. learned some interesting stuff, about how the plagues that YHWH cast upon Egypt had to with the death of all the Egyptian gods, and the plagues were representations of different characteristics that were attributed to those Egyptian idols.
|Friday, February 10th, 2006|
Welcome to virtual church 3010. Whatever your religious needs we can meet them. If you are looking for a home feel try a BAPTIST church.
*Room changes to a small church 10 people all sitting down asleep*
If you are more charasmatic lets try the pentacostals
*Room around molds to a church where people are jumping and yelling and running*
If christian isnt your style try muslim
*Room turns into the dome of the rock*
Remember that whatever your needs we can meet them. Never leave the house again. And now, our new uprgrade....
*shows a porch with you on it*
The new Jehova's witness program. We will allow you to go door to door, without ever leaving your house!
*Man answers the door*
Subrscibe to virtual service version 78798070239817 now!
|Wednesday, February 1st, 2006|
Ok, i was thinking last night how much im sick of a wicked government. And i thought about how the punish the wicked people and even some that arent but they claim they are. And in all honesty in a big picture its all an illusion. They punish the mild of the wicked to decieve the people from thinking they are wicked. But in all actuallity, the gov't is run by the wicked who havnt gotten caught. You ask how is that possible. Because they create an illusion of security, and safety, which lets our gaurd down. Thats how we lost our just weight and balances. Thats how we lost the name of YHWH. People becoming complacent and trusting on MANS system to keep what Elohim created. Now interesting enough by this definition, AMERICAN GOVERNMENT is a religion. We trust on MAN to keep YHWH commands, do they not punish the murderers, and the other wicked people. Which to us make us see them as "gods" because they have the power to decide what is right and wrong, and take and here soon probbly give life. And by doing what was already commanded in scripture, but half wrong, (and by the way 99.9999999 right....is still wrong) they create an illusion of truth, drawing in all who are weak in faith, and complacent. I was thinking about it for a while, and came to the conclusion that the statement "If you tell a man a lie long enough, and loud enough, eventually they will believe it as truth" Ex. WW2. Gov't has told us a lie because they only half way obey truth, so long that we no longer even recognize what is truth, and when we are confronted with it, we hit confusion....or Bavel, Babylon. Not only is the world spiritually in confusion. The spiritual world is highly confused. They are looking for a king, but cant find one, and there are some claiming to be them, but the world knows they arent. They are confused, they have no authority to sit under, and be ruled over. Plus our physical world is in confusion, our world now, is the manifestation of the mind of confusion, which because our King has been absent so long, the people set up their own leader (Satan) to rule the way he sees fit. I thought it was amazing how neat this is....
What makes a man wealthy, what he owns, his farm, his cattle. What keeps it from getting stolen? The answer is the law, which is instated by a king. Well why cant his people prosper here, because they have no king. Spritually we do, but just as Philo, and Josephus wrote, all things are first ordained in the mind, then come to pass. He has already set up for his son YHWHshua to rule and reign, but it needs to manifest. THAT IS OUR JOB. We are to make the mind of the king, come here. Not on our own strength as the pagans, but on his strength, will and timing. Without a king though, the theif may come and go as he pleases, and no one can claim any different. In fact we see it often in the book of Jasher, when they write on Sodom and Gamorra. The people were so wicked, that even the judges of the day were wicked (anyone thinking America yet). Because the laws have vanished from our hearts and mind, they can no longer be manifested, without laws the theif (Satan) may come and go as he pleases. But watch, when we obey his laws, manifesting the laws which govern the earth, and our temple (body), which were first in the mind, then created. It is then, that our father, the creator YHWH can hold the theif accountable for his wrong doing. In his mind ofcourse. But in that day that we manifest the king physcially on earth, Revelation tells us of his punishment, which was first in the mind of the creator. Then manifested when the king comes here. Amazing...I thought so atleast.
In war its always the best idea not to make more people to fight, but to turn the enemies people for your side. This is what our adversary is doing. Pray all of you out of the dellusion for those who are still to come out. There is an order to all things, maybe i should write more on that (YHWH willing), but first they will be blind, then they will be confronted by the spirit with truth. And naturally being of the world first, their body and mind not being captive to YHWH, will be at enmity with truth, causing the Bavel, or Babylon, CONFUSION. It is this thought, this first doubt that what we always knew, might just be wrong, that drives us after the pursuit of truth. As the messiah said there are many types once confronted, some give up and say i cant believe ive been lied to, others search, but when each time, they must go through CONFUSION cause there mind is at enmity with YHWH, and YHWH with the world, then they may give up their. But there will be some...yes only a few that find the path, and pursue truth, till it is revealed as on the mountain, and we are led with a cloud by day, and fire by night. Amein.
Most of you who read it probbly already see it, and i did too, but not to such an extent, so i figured id post on what my thoughts were on it. Just remember that as in any kingdom, there are rules and laws, for us to obey, and the spiritual is the same way. So lets correct our thinking, which then being born in the mind, will manifest in our actions which james wrote, will perfect and make whole our faith.
|Thursday, January 26th, 2006|
|The lost lamb
Its saddening o children of Yisrael, who have gone astray to follow a shepard of heavy burden but the illusion of lightness. You have wilfully turned away from the good shepard knowing that he will discipling those who he loves, but you have chosen to be led to the slaughter, and eternal fire. I weep for you, and your repentance. I weep that you have turned away knowing well of truth and its purpose. Not cause you have denied me, not cause you persicute me, but cause daily, we grow closer to the time of no return. When your choice is final. I weep that you walk over my master, the messiah, Yahshua!
|Tuesday, January 24th, 2006|
|Just keep sinning?
Person 1: Hi
Person 2: Hi what did you need to talk about?
Person 1: I don't fully agree with your guy's teachings and right now I think its just best to see where im going, where truth is & where it leads me.
Person 2: kk so...what exactly do you not agree with?
Person 1: A lot of things, its just hard to explain but do you get what im trying to say sorta?
Person 2: Ya i get what your trying to say
Person 1: I dont mean to disapoint you guys, but its something i have to do.
Person 2: I cant tell you what to do and what not to do, along with what or what not to take and believe as truth, underestand what im saying?
Person 1: LOL yea im just seeing where truth leads me and if it is truth, He'll call me back and say hey listen to me, but im on my own K?
Person 2: KK how much trouble did you get in for telling me about person 3 and how you like him. And why?
Person 1: They think you will tell person 4 and he will yell at person 3, but i really dont care and even if person 4 yells at person 3 its not his place to be telling person 3 whe they can and can not like.
Ive removed names for the sake of slander and causing a problem. But i believe there is a point to this. Lets start with Shaul's letter of sinning wilfully.
Rom 6:1 What shall we say then? Shall we continue in sin, that grace may abound?
Rom 6:2 Elohim forbid. How shall we, that are dead to sin, live any longer therein?
Rom 6:6 Knowing this, that our old man is crucified with [him], that the body of sin might be destroyed, that henceforth we should not serve sin.
That is the exact attitude, the one that says, if its supposed to be, then he will fix it and i will do what i want till then. Let us be careful of that, WE should not sin just cause there is grace. You ask why?
Phl 2:12 Wherefore, my beloved, as ye have always obeyed, not as in my presence only, but now much more in my absence, work out your own salvation with fear and trembling.
Just because we have the grace of the messiah once does not mean always. It says WORK out your SALVATION with FEAR and TREMBLING. Even Shaul in his writtings wrote that he HOPES he will be found worthy. And we are supposed to pray that we are counted worthy to escape. It isnt just a one time thing, and its a dangerous game to play with the creator to think that you believed once, and you are forgiven and never have to serve him again. Im not saying that is what this person is doing, but it struck me with a constant problem i see.
Hbr 10:23 Let us hold fast the profession of [our] faith without wavering; (for he [is] faithful that promised;)
Hbr 10:24 And let us consider one another to provoke unto love and to good works:
Hbr 10:25 Not forsaking the assembling of ourselves together, as the manner of some [is]; but exhorting [one another]: and so much the more, as ye see the day approaching.
Hbr 10:26 For if we sin wilfully after that we have received the knowledge of the truth, there remaineth no more sacrifice for sins,
Hbr 10:27 But a certain fearful looking for of judgment and fiery indignation, which shall devour the adversaries.
Hbr 10:28 He that despised Moses' law died without mercy under two or three witnesses:
Hbr 10:29 Of how much sorer punishment, suppose ye, shall he be thought worthy, who hath trodden under foot the Son of God, and hath counted the blood of the covenant, wherewith he was sanctified, an unholy thing, and hath done despite unto the Spirit of grace?
Hbr 10:30 For we know him that hath said, Vengeance [belongeth] unto me, I will recompense, saith YHWH. And again, YHWH shall judge his people.
Hbr 10:31 [It is] a fearful thing to fall into the hands of the living Elohim.
Hbr 10:32 But call to remembrance the former days, in which, after ye were illuminated, ye endured a great fight of afflictions;
Are we alone, should we ever claim to be alone. Even the prophet Eliyahu (Elijah) was corrected when he said he was the only one. He was told their were others. And here another believer in the messiah believes that they dont need to be amongst believers. Are we ever alone, surely not, the messiah is with us at all times. More specifically his Spirit. Even worse was the people decided to go back and sin, knowing the truth. He warns them. READ IT. That is a harsh and ruthless punishement. And who are you to think you are any different.
So heres my encourgement, let us gather together whether in spirit or physically, and endure the fight of our faith together. Standing in the gap for one another that we may be complete, and be a body to one another. I beg all who read this to concider the punishement for going back to sin. I do not know this persons pre-destined path, but our creater does, i will not judge that path. But sinning or not, let it be a warning to all who are truely working out their salvation.
|Monday, December 26th, 2005|
Well i hope you all are enjoying your pagan holiday. Actually thats a lie, i hope that its a holiday filled with conviction and repentance, but for most of you, you will harden your hearts, and laugh at my post. OHHHHH well. A fitting quote goes here.
"YHWH will be find all those people that celebrated christmas, and he will take their trees from all the years, and he will use them to fuel the lake of fire, for the same people to be destroyed in."
HA HA HA. Well, i hope you all enjoy celebrating the WRONG date of the messiahs birth.
|Friday, December 23rd, 2005|
|A good time and 10 hours home
Be praying and interceding for amy and I, we make our trip home today regardless of whether, not that it matters he made the weather. BUt we hope to see all we left, soon, and we will be glad to be home to family and friends, mainly my spritual family.
|Thursday, December 22nd, 2005|
|Rejoice children of Yisrael and children of Yehudah
The messiah has once again spoken that someone else will be his. He called him out, and led him there with an outstretched arm. Once again we see our messiah still living and fulfilling what he said he would do. save the lost sheep of Yisrael. So all you seekers of truth, and all you who dwell in the house of our Master, and Elohim YHWH, rejoice. Blow the shofar, dance before your king, bring your praises as sacrifice before him. Those of you who lament, your sorrow will be turned into joy, for tonight you have seen your work be fruitful. Daughters of zion, who birthed this manifestation, may tonight be a celebration. Today another one has understood our messiah, YHWHshua, and his purpose. Their will be those that persicute you and say but its only one, but how precious this one is. Or any ONE. For all of us would go aside to save one.
My brother, and most of all my friend, you are blessed beyond belief. For one of the hardest parts of truth, is repentance. And you have saught it out humbly and bowed yourselves at the messiahs feet. Today i believe for the first time in a long time, you understand the need of The Blood for our remission of sins, more than ever before. I weep out of joy to see you restored. And i believe i speak for everyone, you are as the prodigal son, you are forgiven over and over, and we view you as the messiah views us, pure and consecrated unto YHWH. May the Ruach lead you into all truth as you begin the journey for your quest for truth. Amein!
|Monday, December 19th, 2005|
|Something i found interesting
David and I were up last night. Everyone else went to bed shortly after me and david starting discussing how the Ruach is leading us about the sabbath. We as always when we are just talking, jump from topic to topic, and watch how scripture can come together and make sense. And i realized, how can ANY man today think he knows something. Man or Woman, they know nothing. Theres a few reasons, even in cannonite scripture, there is sooo much depth, it will take years and years, to comprehend. Also even Sha'ul who most of you call Paul, he was a pharisee of pharisee's he was raised in Scripture taught it daily, obeyed. And yet christians think they understand his writings after a few years of a seminary class. It will be almost impossible for people to understand scripture, because we werent raised with it, and how it should be. See im realizing more and more, that the writers were of Judah, (Not to be confused with Jews). And that they wrote from a hebrew perspective. For example, when scripture talks about giving thanks for all food, and blah blah blah, that christians take that means the dietary laws are done away with. Well of course from our modern NON Israelite ways, it would seem that way. But when you look at the writer, and see that he was an Israelite, or of Judah, and understand what they call food. Well lets see, lets use some logic. What is food, something you can eat right? If they are not allowed to eat pork, or shell fish, why would they call it food. And guess what, THEY WOULDNT. When he said foods, he is speaking of what they are allowed to eat. Pork is not a food, it is unclean. Anyways my point is, we arent raised like that. We dont understand evening to evening days. It throws me off still trying to figure out the scriptural calendar, when ive been raised in a greek calendar. Everyone of us is under some sort of delusion of Bablyon, it is just to what degree. And yet, i see the arrogance, and the ignorant blasphemy, thinking that man today knows something, that are so full of knowledge and wisdom. HA!
|Thursday, December 15th, 2005|
|snow day vacation
Ohh yess thats right, Edgewood HIghschool is officially dismissed early. And i leave at 6-7 a.m. for SC, to visit the most wonderful parents a loving Elohim can give.
|Tuesday, December 6th, 2005|
Funny, it really is, the ignorance of 90% of believers. Id go further than ignorance and say stupidity. Because is it not true, that knowledge is at our fingertips. Every bit of it, through the wonderful interent, we can find information. And easily, but yet, the blind say let me guide myself for i can see, and refuse the facts. When the cathlic church admits its added things to scripture, and taken away, and added pagan things, and taken away things to avoid persicution, in writing and speech, yet christians wont repent. They admit they are wrong but wont repent. I heard someone say, you can celebrate christmas as long as you dont bow down to your tree, cause its about the messiahs birth. Funny you hard hearted wicked people, can find the actual date of the messiahs birth, and celebrate it then, guess what it just so happens to also be a scriptural biblical feast. You are hard hearted wicked people who are lovers of yourself, and your traditions that put the true dates and times of YHWH to naught. You preach against the obedient because they are "legalistic", but i call you a HYPOCRIT. You see your error and turn a blind eye against it. But you legalisticly and ritually every year bow before your tree to plug it in and hang decorations on it as Jeremiah warned YOU not to do. Every year you blaspheme the messiah by saying he was risen on easter, and then playing with your eggs of fertility. You tell me to comprimise to make people happy, but i tell you i live and love not to make a SINGLE ONE OF YOU happy, unless you delight in YHWH. You young children of YHWH REPENT OF YOUR PAGANNESS, and the sins of your fathers before you follow them straight to the lake of fire. Is that harsh, no, even hell no. Harsh is the judgement you await, and the punishment for you lawlessness. You claim you do stuff in the messiahs name, and yet you curse and kill his prophets even today, and boast of your righteousness through a license to sin. YHWH is making a quick work of those who will not repent. Soon the disasters will befall all the earth, making the ONE TRUE KINGDOM manifest. Not your false illusion, for you serve man and your church fathers, and your dogma. YOu claim those who dont accept the messiah go to hell, but i say that the disasters are going to be far worse for you. Amazing that those who oppose the people of YHWH i watch before my eyes, as they curse themselves unto death, by not repenting. Ive seen them curse me serving YHWH and watch them get sick, lose family and children, go down the drain financially, and yet they say we are led astray and wrong. You claim that we are cursed for our legalism. YOU HYPOCRITS. Blinded by your own ambitions and ego's and plans and ideas or interpretations, you walk a wide gate straight to death, one of an everlasting death. Even worse is that you guide your friends with you, you bring family and friends with you, relentlessly you drag them with you, down the gate built just for you. There are some made just for destruction, and some for glory, and when faced in trial it becomes very clear those of which are made for destruction. Woe to you who oppose truth and curse yourself unto death. Current Mood: pissed off
|Monday, November 14th, 2005|
I love you! Quit being a butthead, and i would love you even more! You can have a cd if you want. Ohh and thanks for letting us come over yesterday. It really made my night after being grounded. Ohh and it was a cute trick that you tried with calling my sister to find out why i was grounded. Too bad it didnt work.
Just a quick update from a new song i put on my CD that im givng as a gift to jessica, and maybe brit.
There is a doorway in the heavens
And its opening wide
To display a Holy City
Waiting in the sky
And we cry out
From the ashes of the earth
Longing to go home
To the place of Second Birth
The time is so near
Zions almost here
Over one last hill
And now were almost there
(there is another verse, but i just went blank, so you get the idea, i may upload some of the worship stuff to a site for you all.
The other day i was on my wya to school, and we come over the hill from 7 mile on 73 going towards the school. And cause the sun was rising the sky was red. And i looked up and i saw pillars of smoke rising from the horizon. Which i know is A.K. steel, but i thought to myself, Bavel the great has fallen.
And i rejoiced all day, seeing that small glimpse of the wrath of Yah poured out on this wicked nation made my soul jump with joy. I hate it here. Im done here, i wish iw ere never here, never raised in this wretched unclean lawless, covenant breaking place. More and more daily i find myself praying YHWH manifest the sons of Yah, and Zion, i want to go home. To my real home, i feel more and more like the prophets of old who longed day and night to leave this wicked place and manifest zion.
Everything about this place fills me with disgust, i pass a church and my spirit rises up, as if Yah is warning me time is short, i will not let me people make praise to Ba'al anymore. I have this fire burning deep within me that warns me that his time is coming. That soon he will reveal the total secret of lawlessness, and that he will call the TRUE isreal, and the TRUE Yehudah, back to him, and cleanse them, and adorn them as his bride. And seeing the wicked now...i marvel at what it will be like in that day.
Sometimes i look and i feel as though i am Eliyah, saying....I am the only one left. Not me i know their are a few ...but compared to the army that stands before us, numbers arent on our side. But Yah quickly reminds me that if I am for you, who can be against you.
This is a quick voicing of my disgust for this wretched place and all things in it, the Baal worship, the Pagan practices in religion, the lawlessness, the immorallity, the lack of faith. Let it be a warning, the time is coming when your reign will end. Repent before then.
|Wednesday, November 9th, 2005|
|Down 49, up 51
Lol, you ever wonder how the mind percieves things. The other day i was just down and out, and i really couldnt think of why. And I thought how the mind percieves the 2 % difference in things. If you walk a thousand miles. And you get to 490 of them. And evaluate, you realize that your not even half way, and you dont think you can do it. But if you evaluate at 51%, the brain says, i made it more than half way. The rest cant be nearly as hard. Thats kinda the way i felt, like i evaluated to much too soon, and just was disapointed at how little had changed, and how hard i worked for it.
On a little less of a sad note, we lost our senior election. I really want to protes that class. I hate it, and I hate politics, and incase you havnt noticed America is going straight to the lake of fire in a handbasket, and no matter what "Christian" leader we elect, nothing gets done, and even then, most dont even preach the real gospel of Yahshua, but a lawless Jesus.
On another less sad note, just incase im starving in the woods and i need food for my survival i can now talk an animal to death about the square root of x and y and the equations for circles, elipses, lines, abs value, and many other things that i DONT CARE ABOUT.
Its good to know that what i learn in highschool i will throw out the window as soon as I graduate. I can add, and subract, and read a scale, lets go back to the gold standard, and forget intrest, and credit.
Lol i got a kick the other day by reading 1st kings and replacing the word LORD with YHWH like its supposed to be, and replacing baal, with the world Lord, like its supposed to be translated. Read the battle of the prophets of Baal and Eliyah, with that in context, makes you wonder about the christians now dont it.????
Well im going to go, figured i would give a small update on my life, since ive been gone. All of you have a good time doing whatever you do after you read this.
OHH YA, THIS IS FOR DAVID AND KATHY - Jana and mark the worship leaders at SRC left apparently. Call me and ill let you know about it if you are interested.
|Thursday, November 3rd, 2005|
Ok, so we debated today in first period. i say we won, but i suppose by the way the money was handed out we lost. Poo. Ohh well. I got more money than anyone in the class she told me i did extremely well. Boo Ya.
Im getting kinda nervous about graduation....that is if i do. I just dont know what to do after i graduate. Im annoyed like crazy because i cant get work. Ive called back a few places and none will do so right now. And i cant drive, my mother kind screwed me over in that. Being that in order to get my license i have to be able to drive to pass the test, and my mother wont let me drive, or get my temps, so i can learn how. Im becoming very pissed off. i got a 5000 dollar scholarship to sinclair for PC programming. Also 29-32 credits for there. Ive never been worried about graduation, or what to do, but the closer i get to it, the more i realize i cant be of this world, and that i need to trust YHWH. Its just hard for me. But may the Ruach give me strength, and lead me into perfection, and perfect obediance to our master YHWH.
There is soo much going on, and to choose from. I could probbly find an appartment in SC near david and kathy, but i really dont want to leave brit and jess. I dont want to leave them. Ive grown soo close to both of them while im here. But i also dont want to be apart from my mother and father (David and Kathy), and i miss being around them like i was this summer. And while im here im strongly restricted on what i can obey. But I also can move out after this year. im just not sure. AHAHAHAHA. I know that YHWH has been super kind to me while ive been here, and granted me favor, with people i never thought i would have favor with. And also he has shut doors i never thought he would shut, both good, and bad. This is an amazing time of reflection. No matter what happens, i cant look back, and say that YHWH has been bad to me.
I feel drained. I havnt gotten to study, and moment I get of time, is short so i cant do much, but praise YHWH and just pray he gives me strength to make it. He has, he has been sooo faithful. But i just feel so distant from him. And i know he is right there, i jsut cant get there. i will be glad when all this is over and i can just go in my prayer closet and worship him in spirit and truth, and bask in his presence, and glory, and be refreshed. Truelly he does give water so i will never thirst again.
May i glorify YHWH in all i do, that he shows more in me, and i show less of me untill the glorious day of resurection, or Zion manifests. Either one ill be happy with. YHWH humble me in any area of pride that i think i can do things on my own, and try to pick myself back up on my own strength. Cause its only by your grace and mercy i breathe the breath to pick myself up. May you cleanse me with the blood of our precious messiah YHWHshua. So that i glorify you here in this wretched place, and make the sons of Yah manifest. May i find favor in your eyes, in all i do, that for your names sake, and only for you names sake that you would bless me, to glorify you. Amein.
|Wednesday, November 2nd, 2005|
Omgosh, this is crazy. I am so running out of time for anything. This mock election has removed any time i have. I'm busy campaigning, and im busy promoting my Liberal party. And trying to get the best grade i can. I havnt had time to study, or do much, since then, cause any class time i have is used for the election and the homework of everything else at night, ill be glad when this is over.
|Friday, October 28th, 2005|
|A call to prayer
I could really use some prayer right now. Issues with people leading the disciples of YHWH away, and into their own destruction. Im not sure exactly how to handle it. Although things have been going well, they are rapidly declining.
And unfortunately it doesnt just involve me...other people are being slandered, and harrassed. I realize we undergoe persicution, and i accept it HalleluYah. But, may YHWH grant us the strength to overcome our fleshly desires, and allow ourselves to be crucified.
|Monday, October 17th, 2005|
|A writing i had on my heart, from speaking with YHWH
Awake o' Yisrael, the true Yisrael, from your slumber
You have been found sinful and wicked
Wearing the garmets of your lovers
YOu go and lie with those who fill your needs
instead of trusting in the one true Mighty ONe, YHWH
YOur time is short, for even now the Kingdom of YHWH is manifesting
and the start of the end of things, is beggening.
Quickly, make things right, REPENT.
Before you wake up, in your bed of whoring
And see the citizens of Zion leaving the Kingdom of Whores.
IF not you will look and see, family, friends, sons and daughters
Rejoicing leaving Bablyon, singing the taunt song:
Surely YHWH has delivered us from our sin.
Surely YHWH has shown mercy beyond reasons, for we are lawfull people, and found blameless in his sight.
Surely YHWH has heard the cries of the oppressed and taken head and ear to our prayers
Surely YHWH has today broken the staff of the wicked
They shall rule no more. For YHWH has called his people out
To the HOly city from the heavens, for his final assult.
O'Yisrael, i plead on your behalf before the throne.
I beg of our master, YHWH, to open your eyes
Before the delusion has become to strong, and you are lost in it
But he quickly rebuked me and said:
Uriyah Matityahu, did i not send the delusion
Did you not learn some were made for destruction, and others for glory
Then why do you pray against what i have sent
Curse what i have cursed, and bless what i have blessed
And i fell on my face weaping in my own ignorance
And a voice spoke and said:
Surely, you are humble, and for this you will be exalted as promised
My son, once you were blind like them, if not for my grace
Now you see, and because you have ears to hear, and sight to see
I have chosen you also to lead my people out of her whoring
And into her new virginity
For she is my bride, and she may run and whore, i love her
I will collect her again as my own
After she has kept the house, and i return.